Instagram Pregnacy Journey Photos

Since I found out we were expecting, I didn't really have time to update my blog regularly due to some technical problems and that I got myself busy feeling ill most of the time. lol..So my pregnancy journey isn't much detailed and regular in here than I would have wanted.
Anyway most of the Mummy's out there probably would agree that every pregnancy journey we have is a very precious experience for us, especially for the first time Mummy to be like me. Every first is amazing, first scan, first show of the bump, first kick, first move, first clothes we bought, first everything..we want it all remembered and cherished. So I would understand those Mummy to be like me if they have a photo of their bump inch by inch bigger, or if every little thing that is connected to their pregnancy they have photos of and is sharing it in the social network they're joining, don't be kill joy as it's just their or should I say OUR way of cherishing the moment, sorry if you think it's too much, for until you become one of us you wont know the wonderful feeling we all have!
Thanks to Facebook, Twitter and especially Instagram for making it possible for us to document and share all these special memories. And here's some of mine;

Everything grows rounder and wider and weirder, and I sit here in the middle of it all and wonder who in the world you will turn out to be...iloveyousomuch my little one! See you, hug you and kiss you in 6 weeks and 3 days! :)

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Pregnancy and Beyond

Being pregnant is such a joy to every parents especially to the mothers who are carrying the little miracle in their tummy. The moment you saw those two lines in the pregnancy test, you know your life is about to change forever! 

Constant change, that's how it will be for the rest of 40 weeks. You have to be ready and be prepared for a roller coaster ride..I'm sure most mummy's and pregnant women like would agree to this.
My journey to pregnancy wasn't easy, I would say that the first 3 months was indeed a joyous yet breath taking roller coaster ride.
I found out I was pregnant last week of October following my birthday. We were so delighted and ecstatic knowing we were expecting. A birthday wish come true for my husband and I (both birthday in October).
I was at my happiest but something is tormenting me...What if it will happen again?I couldn't possibly bear it anymore! Following a miscarriage, being pregnant again couldn't be more distressing! I was so stressed BIG TIME!
I was worried all the time, every little unfamiliar change and deja-vu on the previous pregnancy tormented me. Morning sickness was just as bad as the previous, I was so fussy with food and so scared of moving about. Because of my previous MC my GP signed me off from work for a month for observation. I was a bit relieved as I could rest well while the baby is developing out of the danger zone as they say. Not a day goes by that I am worry free, everyday I have to tell myself to be strong. I talked to my baby everyday to keep fighting, be healthy and be strong for me. And above all what made me survived is my FAITH, that my GOD is a good GOD, he is with me all the time and He will grant the desire of my heart. Provided me with a loving family, such a great husband who is with me all the way and said he wanted to take this journey with me no matter what.
And so here I am a thriving 21 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Not so long to wait now. More that half way through 40 weeks :). I passed the tricky 1st trimester, morning sickness gone, sensitive smell gone, being giddy, and most all I am worry less. I had my 12week scan which came out good, saw my baby for the first time and saw heart beating was superb feeling. Here are some photos of the 1st scan

Our 12 weeks old babybunch

An excited and proud Daddy!

A happy and excited Mama!

20 week scan, showing my little one's hand and foot :D cutiepie

 All test result normal and baby growing well and healthy. Last week we had our anomaly scan where they check the baby's organ and happy to say that our little one's perfectly alright and all organs normal and healthy. It was such a great experience the 20 weeks scan as you could see your baby moving around. hehe...Our little one was very fidgety, lots of movement and actually while I'm blogging now, my little one is very fidgety, I think it's lunch time Mama, enough blogging for now.. :D Happy Mama Happy Baby! Cheerio!

Getting Over and Letting Go :'(

It has been almost a month since that tragic day happened. And there are days when I look back and thought about it, I say to myself "You've done very well Roxxy, you've stayed strong". But there are times when I could still feel the pain, fresh and inconsolable as I was that very moment it happened. Just when I thought I am in the peak of getting over it, I burst in tears when my husband played one of the scene in the movie "Tarzan" from you tube
And last night when my husband was reading the "Empty Arms" book with me and one of the mothers said in the book " This was my child who brought me only joy all the days of his life. Thank you God, for that kind of child; it was a gift only you could give." Tears fell from my eyes after hearing this as it is so true. When I had my baby in my tummy everyday was bright and happy and I miss that feeling now. :(

"God's plan is better ours" yan ang lagi kong sinasabi kapag nawawalan ako ng lakas ng loob na lumaban. Kanina bgila na naman akong nalungkot kaya ginawa ko I listen to song I like in You Tube, yan ang lagi kong ginagawa kapag malungkot ako. After constantly looking and listening to songs, I came across sa kantang "He'll Carry You" by Hilary Weeks. Heto pakinggan mo;



He knows your heart
He knows your pain
He knows the strength it took just too simply breathe today
He sees the tears that you cry
He knows your soul is aching to know why
He hears your prayers each humble word
When you said you couldn’t face another day he understood
He knows the path that you will find
Though you felt alone he’s never left your side

He knew there’d be moments when no earthly words
Could take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He’ll bring you peace and leave you hope
And in the darkest night he’ll comfort you
Until you know the sun will rise and each new day
You will have the strength to live again

And when there are moments when no earthly words
can take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He hears you when you’re crying in the night
He hears you when your soul longs to find
Till the morning will come
And the light of the dawn reassures

It's a wound that only God and time could heal. Ikaw, ano ang kwento mo? xx

Three Weeks Stay-At-Home-Wife

Having signed off from work and stayed in the house for 3 consecutive weeks made me realised how demanding it is being a stay-at-home wife. There are household works waiting to be done everyday and I kept finding more as the day goes by. Brushing the floor, dusting, cleaning the kitchen, laundry and watering the plants (especially the tomatoes) became my routine every morning. I set a date once a week to clean the bathroom and do some ironing twice a week. Ironing is a marathon yet it's my pride to see my husband wearing presentable clothes at work and going out. And cleaning bathroom, laborious! Dust and my hairs are everywhere, but as what my Mama told me, apart from the kitchen it should be the most immaculate place in the house! Right?
I did a really good job clearing our spare room last week. Because I thought of renovating the room sooner, I started to tidy it up. Mum in-law and I did some filling on the wall with cracks and holes and then I cleaned the wall with sugar soap to have it ready for rubbing and painting. I piled the boxes of books in our secret cupboard and so we hope to continue renovating the room when we have sometime so to have it ready for our special someone to be send by God. (big smile)
Another housework I do enjoy now is watering the plants especially our tomatoes. I've been enjoying gardening lately. Thanks to my mum in-law whos' encouraging me to use my spare time in a more productive way rather that sulking in my bedroom, facebooking!hehe..
Cooking dinner for my husband has been my favourite routine for the day. Although it gets tedious sometimes trying to alternate English and Filipino/Asian foods. I don't know much about English food and I guess not so much with Filipino food as well. OK let's just say I am a complete beginner in cooking. I was not interested in cooking at all so I didn't bother to learn I hated it, honestly! Until we've moved to our own house, I realised I have to like it after all. My Mama has been a very good mum and wife and so as my mum in-law and so for me to be like them, I should at least learn how to cook! hehe..
I am just so lucky that my husband isn't a fussy eater. He eats anything except seafood, whatever I cook he eats and above all he likes Filipino food! (Smile).
Being a house wife is indeed demanding and laborious sometimes but the role itself  is fun and at the end of the day a job well done!
It's my last day being a stay-at-home wife and tomorrow I will be back to my working wife role! I am excited and ecstatic to be finally coming back to work to build my confidence again, see my work colleague friends and be able to help my clients! I miss them..
Thank you God for sustaining me in the longest 3 weeks of my life. Thank you for being with me every step of the way and showing that there's still plenty of reason for me to love life and continue living despite of what happened. Thank you for all those wonderful people around me, for their prayers and thoughts.
I am now ready to face the world with you..I know you will soon bestow us the most precious thing our hearts desire.

Bagot, Bored, Homesick

Ako ay nababagot, nabobored at na hohomesick na naman. Ang hirap din talaga mag-adjust at mag-cope pag nasa ibang bansa ka.Kahit lahat pa ng bagay na pinapangarap mo lang noon andito na at abot kamay mo, di pa rin kompleto ang buhay. Noon akala mo heto yong mga bagay na magpapaligaya sayo pero hindi rin pala. Mamimiss mo rin ang mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa mo noon nong asa Pinas ka pa.
Marami ang naniniwala na masuwerte daw ang mga Pilipinong nasa ibang bansa. Madali daw ang buhay, maraming pera at mas masaya. FYI po, mas masuwerte po kayong mga nasa Pilipinas.
Bakit? Dahil unang una kapiling niyo ang lahat ng mahal niyo sa buhay. May karamay kayo sa bawat problema at lungkot na dulot ng buhay. Hindi man kayo sumusuweldo ng dollars o pounds, at wala man sa inyo ang mga karangyaan sa mundo, nasa sa inyo naman ang pinapangarap ng bawat Pilipino. Ang kaligayahan na kapiling ang buong pamilya.
Base po yan sa pinagdaanan ko. Lumaki ako at mga kapatid ko na hindi nasubaybayan ng Papa ko dahil isa siyang OFW sa Saudi. Matagal din siyang nagtrabaho don mga dalawampong taon. Umuuwi siya isang buwan kada dalawa o apat na taon, depende sa kontrata niya. Kaya lumaki ako na halos di ko siya makilala at may takot sa kanya. Naging isang estranghero sa akin ang aking ama. Nong bata pa ako ayokong umuuwi siya, sabi ko di na baleng wala siya, ok na ako kay Mama.
Pero sa pagdaan ng panahon at habang lumalaki ako at nagkaisip nawala rin ang takot ko sa kanya. Napalitan ito ng paghanga at malaking malaking pagmamahal. Unti unti kong nakilala ang aking ama at isa siyang dakila para sa akin.Tiniis niya ang lungkot na mawalay sa amin para lang mabigyan kami ng magandang buhay. Dahil don idol ko siya at siya rin ang numero uno kong tagahanga. Buong buo ang tiwala niya sa kakayahan ko at matalino daw ako. Kaya simula noon ang bawat tagumpay ko sa pag-aaral para sa kanya. Nangarap ako ng matayog, kaya kong abutin ang buwan para sa Papa ko.
Kaya nong namatay siya gumuho lahat ng pangarap na yon, naging walang silbi lahat ng pangarap ko kasi wala na siya. Doon ko nakita kong gaano kalupit ang buhay, nawala ang tiwala ko sa "future" na sinasabi nila. Pano pa ako magkakaroon ng magandang kinabukasan kung kinuha niya ang kaisa-isang tao na magbibigay sa akin nito. Matinding lungkot at takot yon ang naramdaman ko. 
Matinding lungkot dahil nawala ang pinaka importanteng tao sa buhay ko. Nawala siya sa mga panahong naramadaman at naisip ko na pinaka masaya pala ang pasko pag andiyan siya. Sayang, isang beses lang kami nagkasama sa buong pasko sa buhay ko. Ang sarap pala ng yakap ni Papa pagkatapos kang murahin at pagalitan ni Mama. Don ko naramdaman na ang "YAKAP NI PAPA" kayang pawiin at palakasin ang loob ko na labanan kahit na pinakamasakit pang mura ng kung sino. Yakap na nagsasabing "Walang sino mang Puncho Pilato ang puwedeng mang-api sa bunso ko." Yakap na sana nakuha ko arawa araw kung di lang siya dapat lumayo para sa magandang bukas na na gusto at pangarap niyang ibigay sa amin.
Kaya ngayong may asawa na ako at nasa ibang bansa rin, mas lalo kong naintindihan, hinangaan at minahal si Papa.Lalo nga lang akong nasasaktan sa tuwing Nababagot, Nabobored, at nahohomesick ako, kasi naiisip ko na doble o triple pa ang nararamdaman noon ng Papa ko kasi walang siyang kahit na sino sa tabi niya. Ako masuwerte pa rin dahil kasama ko ang asawa ko, mga biyenan ko at may mga kaibigan sa banyagang bansang ito.
Pero lalo ring tumatatag ang loob ko dahil alam ko kailangan kong maging matapang para ipagpatuloy ang pangarap na binuo ni Papa sa pamilyang inalayan niya ng buhay. Kaya sa mga ta-ong nagsasabing hindi naging mabuti ang buhay namin kung hindi dahil sa mga asawa namin "PAKYU!!!!!!". Para malaman niyo hindi man kami mayaman hindi rin kami naghirap ng masyado dahil patuloy na nangarap ang Papa namin para sa amin.Dugo at pawis ang inalay niya para lang hindi kami apihin ng mga mapanghusgang taong katulad niyo! Pinaghihirapan ko kung ano man ang buhay meron ang pamilya ko ngayon.

Kaya after all I realised being with our Papa all our lives would be best than a good life. Perhaps it wasn't the good option before nong mga bata pa kami but growing up I can't even remember the good life, just the pain being away from our Papa most of our lives kaya he chose to spend most of his years working abroad just because he preferred to give us a good life. I am not blaming Papa at all or Mama, perhaps that's the bitter sweet life nating mga Pilipino. Kaya FYI po ok lang mag abroad but don't live all your life or don't let your parents/parent live all their lives working abroad dahil sa GOOD LIFE na yan!! Pag naka ipon na ng tama go home habang malakas kapa and so you have the rest of your life with your loved ones. What is a good life or money after all. Pag lumaki po yong mga anak niyo at nagkaisip tama man ako o hindi if you asked them now they would prefer to be with you all these years kesa sa lintik na good life na yan!

Tsaka family photo po don't forget, yan ang simpleng pangarap ko lang na kahit kailan hindi hindi na mangyayari unless mag photoshop!

Ang Nababagot, Nabobored at Nahohomesick, 

My Dream Holiday

A long weekend away or perhaps a week holiday is what I long desire. Take a long break from work not having to think that I have to go back the next day after staying in the house all day because of the bad weather! I want to go somewhere far, away from a busy city life and traffic. Somewhere where I could see beautiful landscapes while in a long drive. Stay in a century old hotel or in a self catering thatch cottage in a countryside surrounded by unique, old buildings, houses and shops. I wanna have a walk in the hills on a sunny day, visit state houses and castles and explore their enchanting gardens.
Spend an evening in a pub or romantic restaurant having a nice dinner with my husband. Then a pint or two of cider while having a good chat and laugh afterwards.
I want to go somewhere where nobody knows me and everybody is a stranger to me. So I could freely dance in the middle of the street in case I feel like doing it. Or I could shout or laugh out loud in happiness and nobody would mind me. Or sing while walking, kiss and hug my husband any time, anywhere without someone saying " C'mon get a room!" (nyahaha).

Or otherwise I dream of a romantic, extravagant get away..A Europe Cruise or Europe Trip..via train..Wow! It would be a dream come true to finally visit the romantic city of Paris. Have a photo with the Eiffel Tower..weeeh..haha. Walk down in the fashionable high streets of Paris..whew!
And the next stop? Roma, Italia! my dream country to visit since I was young. Perhaps a religious influence, being a catholic and studied in a Catholic school I really wanted to visit Vatican, set foot and have a moment of reflection at St. Peters Basilica one of the most holy and sacred place for us Catholics and of course the privilege or should I say if you're lucky to see the Pope, but I doubt it..lol..
3rd country to visit..Greece! I think by this time historical influence..gods and goddesses, remember?hehe..Zeus, Athena, Hercules?lol..And oh the remarkable Akrotiri in the island of Santorini and the magnificent Acropolis.
Next stop? Switzerland! Not that I know a lot about Switzerland or anything has influenced me but I really think this is one of the best country to visit. Oh actually there's one influence I suppose why I want to visit Switzerland, they're one of the best chocolate maker, for me Swiss chocolat is the best! That's why I love Lindor!hehe..*wink*

Enough of this day dreaming..But anyway I'll make sure this won't stay a day dream. Someday either by plane or train or car, my Europe Tour will be for real!

   “Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back: a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country.”  by Anais Nin

Happy Week Ahead!

Pink Lazy Moment :)

I started a very bad cold last Tuesday (until now) although I didn't feel like going to work, I still did cos my off sick noticed was too late already. Yet in the end our manager asked me to go home as I might spread the cold virus..lol
I walked to our house in Faversham as my MIL was there doing some work at the house.I waited for her a little bit and we headed home as soon as she finished.
I was too bored at home and decided to fiddle with our camera settings, and when my hunny came home he did a few snapshots of me feeling ill, looking ill...hehe.Let me share it to you

 O see, addik sa picture noh?hehe..May sakit pa ako sa lagay na yan. Haha..I just really love my all pink outfit. Even my slippers are pink you see, and oh my socks as well! *wink* That's how I bore my husband!lol

Sharing this as my entry for Color Connection

 Pink Friday and Pink Saturday 

Have a great Weekend! xx