Get up and See the World!

Before the previous year ended, 2012 was looking really positive and great for me. I had so much things in mind that I said would keep me busy for the year. We have our house to work on to be our home. I said I wanted to go back to college and be trained as a nurse. My husband's cousin's wedding this spring. Might start my NVQ (National Vocational Qualification) training at work soon. Will get my Indefinite Leave to remain visa this August. And might start a driving lesson if possible. Loads and loads to look forward to.
But it seemed like the optimistic outlook has shattered. I don't know why, but the interesting life I have and will have here in England has suddenly become black and white. I want to go back to my country soon...that's my attitude...now! I know I am being unfair to my husband acting like this. He said I am asking too much, I am asking to be away from him :( . So sweet, parang si Basha and Popoy..hehe.
But seriously I really think I should stop acting like this, so nega! I'll try not to, starting today I'm gonna get up and see the world. I have a lot to live to and be interested of. I'm sorry hunny, I don't really mean it when I said my life is so bring here and I am bored of you...Cos I am not and you're the only reason why I chose to live here. I can be anywhere in the world as long as you're with me :)
Sorry Lord for being so weak. I think I just really have to spend more time with you and trust you in everything. Please give me courage to face the new year positively, to lean on you more and trust not only in my own understanding. To be grateful and appreciative in things big and small. Thank you Lord a lot for the love and grace :) For all the person that loves me and I love. Thank you for giving me a WONDERFUL husband! I love him dearly :)

" I love you, O Lord, my strength.

The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,

my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,

my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."

 ESV Psalm 18:1-2

Si Roxxy as a Daughter..

Back again at Couples corner, how time flies, good thing I'm always off at Wednesdays to do my weekly post in CC. Anyways I don't how my husband sees me as a daughter, di ko siya tinanong and ayoko siyang tanungin kasi LQ kami (che!)!! Sa view ko nalang ate Liz pwede?hehe..Sigurado ako my husband will agree *wink*

Mama's little girl.. : ( I miss you Mama

As the youngest, close ako sa Mama ko, of course di ako mabuhay ng wala ang Mama ko with me noon. I'm not an ideal daughter I can say but nevertheless I'm not a rebel one (just once). Once in my life naging masunurin din naman ako, naging ideal din siguro perhaps. When I was in elementary and highschool I'm one of the kids who made their Mama & Papa proud. Lagi akong nasa stage at the end of the school term, laging my honour, kaya laging my gift from my Papa who was working abroad by then. He's my number one fan, kitang kita ko talaga noon how proud my Papa was to me especially every time I showed him my report card. But as an ordinary teenager I came to the point na nagrebelde din ako, you know you came to the age na your mum who used to you best friend eh naging enemy mo na. every words na manggaling sa kanya eh nagpapkulo ng dugo mo. But then as I grow older, I realise that my parents, my mum is everything to me. I realised it more when I lost my Papa. And even more when I got married and lived away from home. When I got my visa, I thought I would be happy cos finally i'll be with the man I love, perhaps I was just that I realised it means living away from home and being away from my mama. Naisip ko sa 22years ng buhay ko di pa ako nahiwalay sa Mama ko, pano kaya ako mabubuhay, di ako marunong magluto.(huhu) I even reached to the point that I wanna tell my husband na di nalang ako sasama di ko pala kaya, but in the other hand I thought heto rin lang yong chance ko na mabigyan sila ng magandang buhay especially my Mama. I promised that I'll give here a comfortable life that my Papa wasn't able to experience. I miss him lots everyday, but I need to keep going, my Mama pa ako and now is my chance to give her the best life and the life she deserve after all. Kaya sasabihin ng jowa ko na I'm so generous when it comes to my family, they always come first, I love them very much and always missing them. (madrama to te ha..hehe) See you next week!

 Magdrama na din kayo dito sa Couples corner hosted by ate Liz! *wink*

For My Hunnybunch.. =)

 I Love You

I love you even if we are world apart.

I love you despite our separate lives.

I love you in every little things you do.

I love the way you make me feel special.

I love the way you smile

The way you look and talk.

I love you..with or without your glasses on

I love the way you look at my eyes and tell me it's beautiful.

I love it when you blow me a kiss on cam.

I love the way you tell me how much you love and missed me.

I love it when you call me your wifey and view your future with me.

I love it when you take a day of at work just to spend it with me...

I love the way you laugh at my jokes.

I love the naughty smile you give me when I tease you.

And I love the sweet nothings we always share..

I'd be happy to hold your hand in bad times

and laugh with you in good times.

I will embrace you even at your worst

hug you and kiss you if you have bad day at work.

I will sing with you your favorite song.

Cook for you your favorite food.

I love you..and will never be tired to remind you.

I love you..even though your hair will get bald.

I love you..always,till your hair grows whit.

I love you..no lies,no hesitations, no doubts!

Who's the author? Of course Me moi! I dug this out of my friendster blog. Looked at the date and it says I posted it 12 of Feb 2009, been a while.I love composing poems, through it I could express what I feel. I'm a loner before and even now I always like Me Moment sometime. I made a few poems and one of them is this, which obviously I made for my Hunnybunch whilst we're on our Long Distance Love =) Haay, so delighted I dug this up! Oh what a shame I should have posted it last Valentines day!hmmp!