Before the previous year ended, 2012 was looking really positive and great for me. I had so much things in mind that I said would keep me busy for the year. We have our house to work on to be our home. I said I wanted to go back to college and be trained as a nurse. My husband's cousin's wedding this spring. Might start my NVQ (National Vocational Qualification) training at work soon. Will get my Indefinite Leave to remain visa this August. And might start a driving lesson if possible. Loads and loads to look forward to.
But it seemed like the optimistic outlook has shattered. I don't know why, but the interesting life I have and will have here in England has suddenly become black and white. I want to go back to my country soon...that's my attitude...now! I know I am being unfair to my husband acting like this. He said I am asking too much, I am asking to be away from him
:( . So sweet, parang si Basha and Popoy..hehe.
But seriously I really think I should stop acting like this, so nega! I'll try not to, starting today I'm gonna get up and see the world. I have a lot to live to and be interested of. I'm sorry hunny, I don't really mean it when I said my life is so bring here and I am bored of you...Cos I am not and you're the only reason why I chose to live here. I can be anywhere in the world as long as you're with me
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Sorry Lord for being so weak. I think I just really have to spend more time with you and trust you in everything. Please give me courage to face the new year positively, to lean on you more and trust not only in my own understanding. To be grateful and appreciative in things big and small. Thank you Lord a lot for the love and grace
:) For all the person that loves me and I love. Thank you for giving me a WONDERFUL husband! I love him dearly
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" I love you, O Lord, my strength.
The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."
ESV Psalm 18:1-2