My Random Thoughts

My thoughts are very enthusiastic about job hunting today. I am on job hunting anyways since I received my work permit a month ago. Had a first attempt of applying a job in a mental residential care home but I failed. Sometimes I am full of confidence but most of the time all the negative things is running through my mind. It's hard really, I wish I am confident and outgoing just like the others. Outspoken and jolly always. I thought of studying and pursuing as nurse really but studying here in England, I'll fall as non EU citizen and I'll be paying a lot  whilst if I am an EU citizen, I will be paying less. So bunny said I'll just wait till I have my citizenship,(5 blooming years!huhu) but no choice. Anyhow at the moment I need to find a job so I could or we could start a normal life really. I mean have our own house, we are both earning, be normal wife like cook dinner, do the shopping and manage our own house, our home. I want a more exciting life where I can meet new people, friends that will make me grow and enhance my confidence and learn more about life here in England like everyone else's. May God bless me in this new journey, I hope the perfect job will cross me very soon..Goodnight