Getting Over and Letting Go :'(

It has been almost a month since that tragic day happened. And there are days when I look back and thought about it, I say to myself "You've done very well Roxxy, you've stayed strong". But there are times when I could still feel the pain, fresh and inconsolable as I was that very moment it happened. Just when I thought I am in the peak of getting over it, I burst in tears when my husband played one of the scene in the movie "Tarzan" from you tube
And last night when my husband was reading the "Empty Arms" book with me and one of the mothers said in the book " This was my child who brought me only joy all the days of his life. Thank you God, for that kind of child; it was a gift only you could give." Tears fell from my eyes after hearing this as it is so true. When I had my baby in my tummy everyday was bright and happy and I miss that feeling now. :(

"God's plan is better ours" yan ang lagi kong sinasabi kapag nawawalan ako ng lakas ng loob na lumaban. Kanina bgila na naman akong nalungkot kaya ginawa ko I listen to song I like in You Tube, yan ang lagi kong ginagawa kapag malungkot ako. After constantly looking and listening to songs, I came across sa kantang "He'll Carry You" by Hilary Weeks. Heto pakinggan mo;



He knows your heart
He knows your pain
He knows the strength it took just too simply breathe today
He sees the tears that you cry
He knows your soul is aching to know why
He hears your prayers each humble word
When you said you couldn’t face another day he understood
He knows the path that you will find
Though you felt alone he’s never left your side

He knew there’d be moments when no earthly words
Could take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He’ll bring you peace and leave you hope
And in the darkest night he’ll comfort you
Until you know the sun will rise and each new day
You will have the strength to live again

And when there are moments when no earthly words
can take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He hears you when you’re crying in the night
He hears you when your soul longs to find
Till the morning will come
And the light of the dawn reassures

It's a wound that only God and time could heal. Ikaw, ano ang kwento mo? xx