I love you ..Goodbye

Since I started working which is nearly a month now, (gush,How time flies!) my time seems to run so fast. I haven't got enough time to spare in my blog but I still do check it in my most convenient time. These past few days, perhaps weeks of my life has been so dramatic. One of the most important and loved person in my life passed away. My Papa Efren..*sigh* He's my Uncle actually, my mothers sister is her wife. We call him Papa and my Aunt Mama, they are so dear to us, we love them dearly since we were always with them when we were kids. ever supporting to us, they are like our 2nd parents, Papa Efren is like a father to us since our Papa worked abroad since we were kids and he passed away many years ago. Now our 2nd Papa and our last Papa has left us as well. From now on we don't have anymore Papa. you will say, he's strict and grumpy when you don't know him very well, that's my Papa Efren to others. But for us, he's loving and he likes things, I mean gadgets, perhaps anything he consider he hasn't used during his time. He's a good laugh when he's in the mood, a good adviser in many things. He always stays in his room and he likes his "tricycle" so much. I think it's already antique cos he had it since we were all kids, imagine! His specialty, "fish paksiw" anything basta "paksiw na isda" he's the best! He likes organising things, everything in his house should be used properly, he's so frugal esp. how he used electricity.hehe..

You know what? While writing this, I feel so happy yet sad in the sense that I'm happy because I'm amazed how I describe Papa, I know him very well, I still can picture out most of the things we used to to before with him, his expression when he laughs, when he's grumpy, when he's serious. Oh dear, I can still remember how he warned me and was so worried about my bunny's intention when he first went to the Philippines. I miss you and I love so very much Papa, I may not be there by the time you were so weak and suffering but I'm always praying for you, I never failed to pray for your safety and good health every night. Both for you and Mama..When I knew you finally left us all the hurts that i felt when my real Papa died seemed to come back, it was so painful like I don't want to go on. How terribly I want to be there and hug you and see you and hold your hand. But in my prayers I did, and never did I failed. I love so much Papa, never ko man na tell sa imo but I know you felt it and you know..We'll take good care of Mama Ping, that's a promise! We will miss you..Goodbye Papa!